Confessions of a megalomaniac III

 

Am I really myself when i’m around you?

I’m having nightmares, dirty and sick, that this is not me…

Am I really living another man’s life?

 

You’re so sick of me, you’d tear me apart if you only had the opportunity

Yet, you keep coming back. 

How come you don’t run away and hide , can you not  see , you’re living in my scary dreams

Your coloured pens can’t paint my soul anymore

This is only grey, it’s shades , they all have washed away.

 

I know, I searched for another man with the same tracks and lines

All in all, it’s just not in control,

Behind all these masquerades

It’s just me.

 

This is only a crisis, stay besides me, it’s just that one of  my nightmares has come to be.

Confessions of a megalomaniac II

Shattered sea shells make up your heart, ruptured diamond shards doze off your soul and this electric device will put you in place…

Ah now you’re here, well then, let’s play a game, I’m not saying it’s easy, but you’ll get through somehow. I know you can, you’re the only one.

Don’t stay out on a limb, stay beside me, I’ll help you walk , step by step, from one man to another, with time you’ll learn, you’ll be a master.

Here are your hands, they’re more useful than you think, good, good, it’s starting to look very interesting. You are bound for great things.

Take these two mirrors as well, you can run all you like inside them. What? You want to be free? I don’t think that’s a very good idea but i’m starting to like you already, here, use this empty space to escape whenever you want. A word of caution though, freedom comes at a price,   be careful outside or they will get to you and if they get to you, mercy won’t be shown.

There, now I believe you are ready, but I am not yet capable of letting you go. Hmmm, what if.. no, I shouldn’t but I told you already that I like you. Use these masks when you’re in trouble, you’ll see, you will know what to do with them once you are there.

Now, breathe, stop, breathe, I will see you when the game is over.