“The train will be arriving in 24 minutes..” , a voice covered all of the station’s noise. People around took imediate notice of it, each and everyone of them closed their mouths listening closely to the automated voice. “It’s time to get ready”
24: I am there, the red chair still had the scent of my dreams, i could not grasp them, the rushing voice woke me up unprepared, reality had slowly put it’s pillars deep down in the ground below my feet and above. I pulled a cigarette and my old Zippo out of my coat, lighting it up while i was looking left and right to scour for any spicy details that might pop out. Sadly, nothing was popping out, everything was still hazy and all this waiting was making me more nervous, i need coffee.
23: Technology and it’s marvels, i started moving towards a big machine, they say it makes coffee. As i was moving in closer the machine noticed me, probably by my tired face. It started talking to me: ” Good morning, only for you today we have these select choices”. I read somewhere about this, it was feeding on some sort of coloured papers. There were five different ones, green, blue, red, yellow and purple. Each of them had a caricature of some sort, great men from our past and the greater the man was on every bill the higher the value. The green one was the least valuable while the purple was on the other side of the hierarchy. I started to insert five green papers, one by one. The machine thanked me and presented before my eyes a delicious and hot coffee. While i was dipping inside of it, i started noticing something was happening to my hands, they were starting to itch and soon the veins between my carpal bones were starting to move in a frenzy, they ravaged my skin, blood was tearing out from all the holes in my arms. The pain was short and exhausting. When i looked again at my hands and palms there was no more skin, no more blood, only a metal disguise, very simplistic but heavy, i felt that i gained ten kilograms, the weight was supressing my thoughts.
22: Feelings of fear and panic were only latent at this point, the morning haze was slowly lifting and i could see everybody. I started scouring for those spicy details i was babbling about earlier and feelings of unease were sluggishly creeping inside me, everybody there had the same problem with their hands, the metalic disguise, i could see it, it was all around. I was thinking that nobody noticed their problem, they were in too much of a hurry , moving from left to the right, making phone calls, buying stuff, selling stuff. With that in mind, something struck me, i should be in a hurry as well, i need to call my boss to talk to him about these new plans i had sketched yesterday.
21: “Ring…Ring…Ring” Waiting again for him to pick up made me pull another cigarette, nothing special, i always need to have both my hands busy. No answer. “Ring…Ring…Ring”. “Hello, Siluv Lexai, i was expecting your call at any moment now.”
“Good day to you as well, Boss Ten, i just had my coffee and i promised that i will present to you my sketches for our future endeavors”. I wanted to tell him that something strange was happening today, but i reconsidered, i acted like nothing was out of the ordinary, i gave him my info and my ideas, i sent the sketches by phone, they were perfect, without a flaw, for sure he will be impressed.
“Information , checked, very promising details, checked, ok , now i’ll have to make sure i send all this data to all our servers, i’ll give you a buzz later so i can tell you how everything went.
20: After i closed the phone the numbers and buttons on it started to shake off, my new metal hands didn’t even flinched, but my chest was starting to feel a burning sensation, a moment of being careless and i saw the phone striking at my chest, it was pounding my bones harder and harder until all the buttons started a symbiosis there, another wave of liquid metal was rushing all over my chest, covering it completely. The weight was getting heavier and heavier, how many more of these things, i asked myself, how many more of these things are gonna happen on this day?If you could’ve seen me at that precise moment, you would’ve seen my eyes full of unease, the latent monsters that i was keeping inside were starting to escape freely. Nothing to do, nothing to stop them.
19: What is this maze i found myself stuck into? I need to find some sort of escape, but my mind was not with me right now, fear and distrust were my new friends. All these humans, that were slowly morphing into the machines they have created did not seem to notice the terrible things that were happening, not even now, i still saw them moving aimlessly from a corner to the other caring more about what is in program for the next few seconds of their lives. They were moving right pass me, not even throwing an eye at the situation at hand.
Get your hands out of my face,
My little world of lies is ending. I’m not sad, nor happy… i just exist. People know who they are, they always knew, they just realise it later. I need to feel that i’m alive and i don’t know how to do it. My face is smiling, my face is sad , but my brain doesn’t really know the meaning of “smiling” or “sad”.
